The month of May, I ovulated on Day 11, two days earlier from the month previous (I know, yes I shouldn't complain, I'm thankful I ovulate regularly). We inseminated on Day 9, Day 10, and Day 12 of my cycle. Yes, ideally we should have done Day 11 as well, but we had to consider our donor and the fact that donating 4 days in a row takes its toll.
I was pretty adamant this month that I was preggo, but I'm new to this blog world and a friend stated I was PUPO.
So I was certain I was PUPO, and then I tested Day 12 and got a BFN.
I hope I'm just a late bloomer and I'll find a positive soon.
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Thursday, May 17, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Roller Coasting Along...
The two three week torturing is almost over, I think.... J and I originally agreed that we would wait till Day 12 after ovulation to test, but neither of us were successful at waiting that long. I kept feeling some symptoms that could be ambiguous with premenstrual OR pregnancy, obviously I we hoped for the latter. I tested Day 11, 12, 13 and 15 all BFNs....
On Friday (Day 15 after ovulation) we kinda gave up about thinking I was pregnant, so we had a bbq, drank a couple beers, and enjoyed the weekend. I was still somewhat symptomatic, but by Monday night when I started "spotting" I figured Tuesday was going to be Day 1 of my cycle and I would get an appointment with Dr. K to prescribe another round of clomid.
On Tuesday, I had 2 days of minimal spotting, unlike a normal start to a cycle. Dr. K did an ultrasound, asking all types of questions:
"Is this a normal cycle?"
"I wonder why your lining is so thick?"
"You took a pregnancy test, right?"
You see how all those questions provide a glimmer of hope, despite knowing even if I was pregnant, it might not be viable. But still....
He also said that my left ovary had three enlarged follicles that could be the result of my period starting and they would be flushed away, or they were putting off estrogen, possibly the reason why my cycle has been a week late. If they were putting off estrogen we would have to wait to inseminate so the clomid didn't make it worse.
He ordered a blood test to screen for pregnancy, FSH,and estrogen levels. Late last night, I got an email from the lab, stating that my estrogen and FSH levels were normal. The last unanswered question would be whether or not the blood test detected pregnancy....still waiting....
J convinced me to take a pregnancy test last night. Well, I bartered with her and got a massage and Starbucks at my request.
The test was a BFN.... I kind of thought it would be negative, which made me wish that my cycle would start and we could begin making plans for this month's insemination.
This morning I started my period, at least I think. It is more normal than the past two days, but I can't be certain exactly what is going on until I hear from the Dr., and see if today continues on to menstruate....
My mom summed it up best, "Kel, this has been quite a bizarre roller coaster ride, hasn't it?" Yes it has mom.
On the other hand J and I are in very good, optimistic spirits. I don't mean optimistic that I'm pregnant and going to have a baby in 9 months, but optimistic about us being able to start fulfilling more of our family dreams, and making a baby together. More than anything, I'm grateful that we continue to openly communicate all of our feelings, despite the fact that they might differ from each other. We have a foundation of honesty and compassion. There isn't anyone else I'd want to ride this roller coaster with.
We also have a pretty fantastic support network around us, including the donor, so it is nice we can share our thoughts and feelings with them as well. I'm thankful for that.
On Friday (Day 15 after ovulation) we kinda gave up about thinking I was pregnant, so we had a bbq, drank a couple beers, and enjoyed the weekend. I was still somewhat symptomatic, but by Monday night when I started "spotting" I figured Tuesday was going to be Day 1 of my cycle and I would get an appointment with Dr. K to prescribe another round of clomid.
On Tuesday, I had 2 days of minimal spotting, unlike a normal start to a cycle. Dr. K did an ultrasound, asking all types of questions:
"Is this a normal cycle?"
"I wonder why your lining is so thick?"
"You took a pregnancy test, right?"
You see how all those questions provide a glimmer of hope, despite knowing even if I was pregnant, it might not be viable. But still....
He also said that my left ovary had three enlarged follicles that could be the result of my period starting and they would be flushed away, or they were putting off estrogen, possibly the reason why my cycle has been a week late. If they were putting off estrogen we would have to wait to inseminate so the clomid didn't make it worse.
He ordered a blood test to screen for pregnancy, FSH,and estrogen levels. Late last night, I got an email from the lab, stating that my estrogen and FSH levels were normal. The last unanswered question would be whether or not the blood test detected pregnancy....still waiting....
J convinced me to take a pregnancy test last night. Well, I bartered with her and got a massage and Starbucks at my request.
The test was a BFN.... I kind of thought it would be negative, which made me wish that my cycle would start and we could begin making plans for this month's insemination.
This morning I started my period, at least I think. It is more normal than the past two days, but I can't be certain exactly what is going on until I hear from the Dr., and see if today continues on to menstruate....
My mom summed it up best, "Kel, this has been quite a bizarre roller coaster ride, hasn't it?" Yes it has mom.
On the other hand J and I are in very good, optimistic spirits. I don't mean optimistic that I'm pregnant and going to have a baby in 9 months, but optimistic about us being able to start fulfilling more of our family dreams, and making a baby together. More than anything, I'm grateful that we continue to openly communicate all of our feelings, despite the fact that they might differ from each other. We have a foundation of honesty and compassion. There isn't anyone else I'd want to ride this roller coaster with.
We also have a pretty fantastic support network around us, including the donor, so it is nice we can share our thoughts and feelings with them as well. I'm thankful for that.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Seems like forever ago...
I remember back about 19 months ago when we first started to try to get pregnant, I heard about how easy it was for J to get pregnant with H and obviously, little H is proof of that story. In my head, I thought "this is going to be easy" and humble pie is what I've been eating ever since...
I knew we were going in a different direction from most of our friends who were trying to get pregnant as well, since they were all using sperm donors from a cryo bank and we were going to be using the real deal. No no no, I wasn't going to be having intercourse with our donor, but I would be using his semen and doing it at home, with what most folks think of, the turkey baster. Ok, all joking aside, Iwas am thankful we were using the same donor as H, since the product would be biologically related to her. And no, there is no turkey baster to be spoken of, but there have been lots of different techniques used!
The first time we tried to get pregnant was in August of 2010. I was so good at being conscious of everything I was eating, not drinking, and doing. It consumed my thoughts, and at the same time was so exciting. I thought for sure I'd be the lucky girl who got pregnant first try since I have been so successful with everything else I've done in my life, but boy oh boy, was I wrong!
Live Donor= our good friend, donor to H, gay male, wonderfully generous and willing to always help us every step of the way. Oh and he's very handsome as well!
The following dates list our attempts:
August 2010: kel, live donor, at home (syringe)= BFN
October 2010: kel, live donor, at home (syringe) = BFN
November 2010: kel, live donor, at home (syringe) = BFN
December 2010- May 2011: Break
June 2011: kel, live donor, at home (syringe)= BFN
July 2011: kel, live donor, at home (syringe)= BFN
August 2011: Vacation in NY, Marriage, break
J talks to co-workers regarding our TTC, discovers that my luteal phase may be short (it's 10-11 days at most) and determined it was time to see a fertility specialist
October 2011: First step with fertility clinic:
HSG complete
lab work complete
all normal
sneak in another try, (kel, live donor, at home (syringe)= BFN
November 2011: Finally see fertility doctor, Dr. K. Ultra-sound done, "functional" cyst discovered. Advised to return during next menstrual cycle to check cyst. Also received a verbal lashing about why we should be using unknown donor sperm and the potential "parental rights" of our live donor. J and I felt defeated, yet hopeful we would still be able to proceed in making the next baby biologically related to H.
December 2011: Second visit to Dr. K, "functional" cyst still present, no change in size. Birth Control prescribed to eliminate any hormones causing cyst presence. Dr. K, was much nicer and spoke with more understanding about us using our live donor.
January 2012: Third visit to Dr. K. No longer referred to as "functional" cyst, told it needed to be removed surgically. Advised that surgery will be at least a month away
February 2012: J and Kel discuss options, decide that J should try to become pregnant in case Kel cannot at this time. Kel had surgery to remove thecyst tumor. Surgery went well, Dr. K reports that insides look good and no issues that should effect fertility.
J, live donor, at home (syringe)= BFN
March 2012: J decides she does not want to proceed in getting pregnant herself, she wants to focus on me. Kel waits for menstrual cycle. Follow up visit with Dr. K, clomid prescribed, all fingers crossed!
April 2012: Kel, live donor, at home, clomid, (instead cup)= 2ww= BFN
May 2012: Kel, live donor, at home, clomid, syringe, instead cup= 2ww
I knew we were going in a different direction from most of our friends who were trying to get pregnant as well, since they were all using sperm donors from a cryo bank and we were going to be using the real deal. No no no, I wasn't going to be having intercourse with our donor, but I would be using his semen and doing it at home, with what most folks think of, the turkey baster. Ok, all joking aside, I
The first time we tried to get pregnant was in August of 2010. I was so good at being conscious of everything I was eating, not drinking, and doing. It consumed my thoughts, and at the same time was so exciting. I thought for sure I'd be the lucky girl who got pregnant first try since I have been so successful with everything else I've done in my life, but boy oh boy, was I wrong!
Live Donor= our good friend, donor to H, gay male, wonderfully generous and willing to always help us every step of the way. Oh and he's very handsome as well!
The following dates list our attempts:
August 2010: kel, live donor, at home (syringe)= BFN
October 2010: kel, live donor, at home (syringe) = BFN
November 2010: kel, live donor, at home (syringe) = BFN
December 2010- May 2011: Break
June 2011: kel, live donor, at home (syringe)= BFN
July 2011: kel, live donor, at home (syringe)= BFN
August 2011: Vacation in NY, Marriage, break
J talks to co-workers regarding our TTC, discovers that my luteal phase may be short (it's 10-11 days at most) and determined it was time to see a fertility specialist
October 2011: First step with fertility clinic:
HSG complete
lab work complete
all normal
sneak in another try, (kel, live donor, at home (syringe)= BFN
November 2011: Finally see fertility doctor, Dr. K. Ultra-sound done, "functional" cyst discovered. Advised to return during next menstrual cycle to check cyst. Also received a verbal lashing about why we should be using unknown donor sperm and the potential "parental rights" of our live donor. J and I felt defeated, yet hopeful we would still be able to proceed in making the next baby biologically related to H.
December 2011: Second visit to Dr. K, "functional" cyst still present, no change in size. Birth Control prescribed to eliminate any hormones causing cyst presence. Dr. K, was much nicer and spoke with more understanding about us using our live donor.
January 2012: Third visit to Dr. K. No longer referred to as "functional" cyst, told it needed to be removed surgically. Advised that surgery will be at least a month away
February 2012: J and Kel discuss options, decide that J should try to become pregnant in case Kel cannot at this time. Kel had surgery to remove the
J, live donor, at home (syringe)= BFN
March 2012: J decides she does not want to proceed in getting pregnant herself, she wants to focus on me. Kel waits for menstrual cycle. Follow up visit with Dr. K, clomid prescribed, all fingers crossed!
April 2012: Kel, live donor, at home, clomid, (instead cup)= 2ww= BFN
May 2012: Kel, live donor, at home, clomid, syringe, instead cup= 2ww
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